“When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing — then we truly live life.”

“Everything happens for a reason.” Have you ever heard that phrase before? Well, I certainly have and for many years I found it difficult to accept. My life has been distinguished by a catalogue of events that have been unduly negative and difficult to cope with and not being naturally very spiritual, it’s been somewhat difficult to see what that reason might be. But over the past few years, I’ve come to realise that all those events which were so difficult when they were happening, have made me the person I am and that far from having an ongoing negative impact on my life, have in fact had an overwhelmingly positive influence on me and taught me the really important things in life.

It’s taken me a long time to find peace with myself, and strangely it was my son’s diagnosis of Aspergers Syndrome and the realisation that I’m also Autistic that helped me find it. To many that might sound strange, but for me, it gave me an understanding of my strengths and of the difficulties I face in life. It gave my life meaning and purpose. I will be ever thankful to the Consultant who diagnosed my son and stressed the positive aspects of being on the spectrum, telling him to go away and serach the internet for famous people on the spectrum and to be inspired by them. In the six years since my son’s diagnosis I’ve grown a lot and found a belief in myself and a courage that I never knew I possessed. This year I have also received my own  diagnosis, something which I have never sought, but which even in the few short weeks since I was told has already helped me deal with some of the issues I face.

This blog will I hope grow into a resource that will help people to understand more about what it’s like being on the Autistic Spectrum, not from a professional viewpoint, but from the viewpoint of someone who has lived it. From the viewpoint of the mother of a child on the spectrum. From the view point of someone who advocates for those on the spectrum. Over the past few years, I’ve journalled about my journey from quiet, unassuming mouse to the woman I am today. I’ve written about the difficulties I’ve faced trying to obtain an appropriate education for my son. I’ve tried to ensure that professionals realise that people on the spectrum are individuals with talents and interests and shouldn’t just be defined by a condition. I’ve sat and recorded in my diary my inner most thoughts and anxieties. I hope that by sharing some of these things with you, I will help others to tread an easier path than me, to understand themselves and to promote some of the positive aspects of being on the spectrum.

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